I haven't made a journal, a real one anyway, in a while, huh? Well, I actually do have things to talk about this time since I've been up to some stuff. Wow, I think I just killed the gods of eloquence right there. Anyway, one of these is I just got back from an open house at the college I'm gonna be going to starting August 19th (that's the beginning of orientation week, first class is August 25th), I got to see the dorms and everything. There's really not much separating us from the boys at all, they just live in a different section of the hallway and we can go there whenever *rubs hands mischievously*. I took the math placement exam too, I guess those IB classes did come in handy since it was super easy. I just hope they don't put me in some advanced class xP When I move in I am finally going to be free, no one telling me what to do, I'm hoping I can get a job at Hot Topic since I know they're hiring starting in June, that would be wicked, even though I'm over the whole teenyboppery emo thing. I do think though that I'm one of the people who deserves to dress all emo, my life has been shitty enough, do I make the cut?

Besides that, I went to see Mutter Courage on Friday, it's a play about a mother in the thirty years war that took place between the Catholics and the Protestants. I don't know how they managed to make it so funny and sad at the same time, it was kind of like Sweeney Todd in that way.

The story I'm trying to write is complicated, I'm going to have to start it with a clairvoyant. She's going to declare all dramatically that a demon is going to try to escape from hell, and the whole first chapter will be her trying to stop it. That way the reader will know what's going on before whatever poor teen gets possedssed. I really feel like starting with a simpler story though, but I have to challenge myself, and I said I would do this one.

Superstar by lupe fiasco is my new favorite song, it's my personal dream and it gave me a naruto fanfic idea . It describes my dream of being a famous writer (at least I don't have anymore block), then again, I don't write to be famous, it's what I love to do.

here's the link to the music video: [link]

if you are what you say you are
a superstar
then have no fear
the camera's here
and the microphones
and they wanna know...yeah

if you are what you say you are
a superstar
then have no fear
the crowd is here
and the lights are on
and they want a show

I sound so conceited...ah, fame...